I am at odds about my job. I am looking forward to teaching this fall, a lot. I am excited about planning for it and working with the students. But I am struggling with an issue that I conveyed to my supervisor a few months ago, that I am not doing the research that motivated me to pick this group over another, the work that my contract states that I am working upon. He replied that he thinks that what I’m working on is best for me, but that perhaps I might be able to do some work on that project eventually, on the side of this other project. This is not satisfactory to me; I’m not happy and feel like I’m being used, under the guise of ‘it’ll be better for your career.' So, I am considering what I want to do after this year, and how I want to proceed through this year. Even though I still will have one more year in this program, I’m not sure that I want to stay that long. Don't get me wrong... I like my boss; he's a nice guy. But what I though were mutual understandings about what I want for my career long-term doesn't seem to be playing out. While sticking it out is likely better career-wise than jumping ship, I don't want to continue living my life for some potential future happiness.
I wish I were a bear.
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Oh, I'm with ya.... "potential future happiness" isn't something I wanna waste today over. I choose to be happy doing what I do every day. Some days--that's a very conscious choice......other days, nosomuch.
We get to choose what we'll endorse and what we won't.
I'm graced to be in a position that allows me to bring towards the greater good--not always comfy, not always easy.....certainly not what I'd focused on or what I was more comfortable doing. But it meets the purpose and mission I live.
If it didn't--I'd not be there.
Seems to me it's a 'pray about it' deal...and trust that more will be revealed, eh?
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