I have spent a great deal of time in the past months looking for answers to questions that I cannot even clearly enunciate. I have mostly secluded myself, spending most of my time (outside of the laboratory) reading and praying. This seclusion went too far and before I knew it I had isolated myself from everyone, letting go of the fledgling relationships I had been forging in this
I though about writing but was never satisfied with the words that came out. Nothing adequately captures the potpourri of emotions, thoughts, etcetera, that have filled my days. The suffering I have experienced and witnessed this year is enormous and yet grace and love finds a way to shine through, even when I don’t want to acknowledge it.
As my blogging absence grew, thoughts of posting something made me question why I blog. The conclusion that I have come to is that I blog primarily as a record of thoughts for myself and secondly to share my thoughts with anyone who reads them in hopes that they will provide some inspiration, consolation or other benefit. The Sleeping with Bread meme provides some measure of accountability and I have resolved to be more diligent about recording my Ignatian Examan on a weekly basis.
It's nice to be back. I've missed y'all.
1 comment:
"..and yet grace and love finds a way to shine through, even when I don’t want to acknowledge it."
I hear ya.
Sometimes I get angry it's there.
How human of me, eh?
The best reason I have to use the weblog is ME. It's a place to say what's in that brain of mine. Sometimes it's about me seeing it in black and white and gaining some perspective in the process.
Sometimes it's about the comment that I didn't expect.
Either way--it's been a good experience for me over and over and over again.
I hope this becomes true for you as well.
((((((((((( Ashley )))))))))))
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